Recent Realizations

Conference was so spectacular, even though I didn't take notes, so I don't exactly remember all the talks... But I do know one thing, Heavenly Father sure knows what I need to hear in my life. Lately I've been beyond confused about everything. Nothing is really making sense. At all. But after the Relief Society Broadcast and listening to conference, it reaffirmed the fact that Heavenly Father loves me and is fully aware of all my confusion, and soon enough I will be unconfused! Woohoo!

On another note, I have made the best realization ever in the last month. I know, epic. Here's a picture to help you guess what it is...

No Idea??? Well, I have realized that I just need to stop doing my hair, because it does kinda cute things without the use of any heat products. I know. Shocking. And yes, I've let my hair do whatever in the past, but I learned a new trick! Steam! Just shower and let your hair get damp and it will do the rest on its own. In the end you get wavy, healthy hair, both of which are awesome. 

One more realization, I love doing homework in my living room!

I'm not really sure why. Possibly because we have a Justin Bieber poster, or a "Stop! Hatin's bad" sign, or the natural lighting. Perhaps I'm just in love with it all. 

Speaking of studying, I have a test in a couple hours so I should probably stop blogging! 

Goal of the week: 

Forget Not to be happy! 

Life.

Well... I haven't taken pictures lately, but all you need to know is:

• School is kicking my trash
• My roommates and friends rock
• All I think about is biology 
• President Uchdorf is the man!

The end. Maybe someday I'll be good at taking pictures and blogging again. Hopefully. Oh and I love this   song:

The Legend of the Hugenfrogler

Once Upon A Time....

Kandace was a freshman in high school and participated on the drill team. That year, for the novelty dance, Kandace was a frog. Soon her friends started calling her the Hugenfrogler and her true love of frogs began. Kandace realized that her all time favorite fairy tale was that of the Princess and the Frog. Because of this tale, she believes that all boys begin as frogs and someday the right one will become a real live prince!

During Kandace's freshman year of college, she took a photography class. In this class she did a self portrait assignment that needed to show who she really is. She decided to show her expression as she met the frog that would become her prince. Needless to say, she got an A on the assignment.

Recently, Kandace went to Lake Powell and she was dared to kiss a frog. This dare was not even scary. In fact, she kissed the frog 3 times, mostly because she wanted a picture! Sadly, the frog didn't become a prince. Oh well.

On many occasions, frogs have fallen into her window well. She can always tell when it's a frog because she can hear the hops very distinctly. On Sunday, she opened her window to smile at her froggy friend.

Soon she realized that there was another frog. A STUCK FROG!! She screamed and frantically texted her dad to come and rescue the frog. She knew her dad was at church in her family ward, but something had to be done to save this poor creature.

So her dad realized how important the situation was (mostly because of how worried Kandace was getting) and he came to save the frog{s}.

and they all lived

Happily Ever After!

Broken

Warning: This post is slightly embarrassing and may produce laughter-induced tears.

I have been home for just over a month now and I have broken 4 things that are important to me! 4! And one of them was broken in two different ways! Wanna hear the stories? I'll start with the boring ones first...

First of all, I got these really cool sunglasses from American Eagle that folded up and I loved them. Then I snapped them in half on accident

Also, my laptop just wont turn on or charge or anything

(Funny time)

I may or may not have confused Drive with Reverse in my car and may or may not have ran it into a trailer hitch. In my driveway. I also cracked my radiator.

(Super duper funny time)

Last night I flushed my phone down the toilet. Completely flushed. It fell out of my skirt pocket! I broke the toilet and lost my phone! How did I manage that?!

Moral of the story: At the rate I'm going, I might be physically broken by the end of the summer. It's kind of hilarious in a pitiful way!

Music

Yes, I know I just barely posted, but this song is seriously on the top 200 on iTunes right now. I am impressed with the world of music buyers. Definitely one of the most inspiring songs I've ever heard.

Tangled

Sometimes I feel like my life is a Tangled mess.

And then I watch Tangled and I cheer up a bit!

(p.s. my laptop is broken! therefore I haven't been posting much and wont have many photos of my summer adventures until I get it fixed, or buy a new one. Bummer deal eh?)

All Girls Are Princesses!

On Friday night, I finished hangin with my friends and I wasn't tired at all, even though it was midnight-ish. So I decided to watch a movie on Netflix. (Which is the most brilliant invention ever!). I decided on A Little Princess. I had never seen this beautiful movie, but I'm so grateful I did! This movie is about a young girl named Sara and all of her struggles. She had everything taken away from her and was treated so horribly but always knew she was a princess, and that all girls are princesses. She lived her life in such a way that proved she knew of her Divine Nature. She treated all with kindness and she kept a great outlook on life!

Then on Saturday night, I watched my high school's junior prom. (Yes, the whole town attends small town proms.) My dear friend Sydney's little sister won prom queen. Her name is Emily. Emily has had a learning disability her entire life. Although she struggles with some things, she is the sweetest, most positive girl I know. She is always so happy and full of life. She behaves just like a princess and looks like one too! I was so happy for her when she won! She is so beautiful inside out. Just one look at her proves her Divinity.

Like Emily, I had my turn as prom queen back in the day. It's funny though, because so many girls dream up of being the prom queen, of having a chance at royalty, but in all reality it doesn't really matter. What matters is knowing that all girls are princesses no matter what. We are all daughters of our Heavenly Father who loves us ever so much. He wants us to be happy forever and we can achieve that happiness by striving to live righteously everyday.

I was able to spend my weekend with this little princess! Her name is Annalyn and she is my cousin's baby. She happens to be a twin and she is the most precious baby I have ever seen. She is a gift straight from Heaven. Although she can't even walk or talk yet, she is still a princess. Her sweet Spirit radiates to all who see her and I just know that she is going to be absolutely spectacular when she grows up.

After watching Annalyn this weekend, I realized how much potential we each have because of our Divine Nature. As I said before, worldly royalty is a silly thought, what matters most is knowing who you are and where you come from and what you can become. Make sure you strive to live everyday like the princess you are and treat others as royalty as well.

"I am a princess. All girls are. Even if they live in tiny old attics. Even if they dress in rags, even if they aren't pretty, or smart, or young. They're still princesses. All of us."

-Sara (From A Little Princess)

Some Awesome Stuff About Sophomore Year

Well I've been home for a week now and still haven't done an epic post about the awesomeness of Sophomore year! I've been having a hard time figuring out what I wanted to say in this post, because I'm pretty sure I didn't learn 101 things like I did my Freshman year, but I did learn a lot. I had a lot of challenges, but it was through those challenges that I discovered who I am, and who I want to become. Instead of focusing on the challenges from the year, I want to focus on the happy things in this post because, well, Kandace is happy!

These are a lot of my friends from this past year, especially from Spring Semester. They were the best ever. They helped me smile, even on the darkest days. We always did the craziest things together and everyday was a good day!
{Yes, I stole these photos from facebook.... but I spruced them up!}



{Chelsea, John, Amy, Josh, Christian, and I. The boys of #7 always provided excellent entertainment! Yes, the girls are wearing mustaches!}



{Braxton and I at Brian Regan. Super funny man. Braxton is the best guy to talk to about anything!}



{Alicia and I with J. Wride. I love Alicia so much! She's brilliant, funny, gorgeous, and such an amazing friend! Oh and she has great taste in music. Sorry guys, she's taken!}



{Hiking in Moab over spring break with Andy, Levi, Leo, Amy, Ryan, Dayna, and T-Mills. Definitely an entertaining crew of folks to go hiking with!}



{Chelsea, Kenna, Amy, and I before Dance your socks off night. These girls are like sisters to me. They're there for me always!}



{Girls Night with Amy, Kenna, Chandis, Dani, Chelsey, and Tricia! These girls are so much fun and do crazy things! Like paint rocks!}



{Kenna and I looking way to cute to be in the wilderness! I sure do love Kenna! She is always so good to talk to and is not afraid to tell you her opinion. And she is super funny! I need to thank her for being a sister for me and putting up with me all the time!}



{TJ, Amy, and I in our epic fort. Seriously. Epic. I was so grateful for friends who loved doing childish things!}



{Friends of Academy Square, and Kenna, for our Superbowl Party! I'm telling you, Academy had some of the best people!}


{Oh how I love Ryan and Drew! And Chelsea and Amy of course! I also love that I live in the same town as Ryan and Drew :) }



{Erica and Marina are probably the sweetest girls I've ever met! They're both so happy and smile-y! They are a friend to everyone and make everyone feel so special!}



{I love Chelsea and Amy with ALL of my heart. I would not have made it through this year without them as roommates! I am so blessed that I had them as roommates. I was so scared because I didn't know them beforehand, but they ended up being better than anyone I could've picked myself! Love you guys!}

I also need to give a shout out to Zach and Andrew. I fail at having pictures with them, but they win the award of the best big brothers of the year! Seriously.

On top of having some of the best friends in the entire world, I may or may not of dominated my classes.... cou4.0babbbbyyyyygh..... Just sayin.
Hello summer!

I Want

These sandals!
They are called Sseko Sandals.
Sseko Sandals are created by women in Uganda trying to earn money to go to college.
They also all have the same base and you can buy a buttload of different straps (if you have the money) and lace them up differently everyday! Legit huh?

So thinking about these hard working women who would do anything to go to school really made me super grateful for the opportunity to be here at school! I know I'm not as grateful as I should be all the time (sorry guys, but sometimes I'm just too lazy to like homework!) But it really is the best thing ever. I am so blessed to be having such great experiences and learning so much! I've grown so much in the past 2 years and I can't wait to see what the next...2, 3, or 6 (depending on what I end up doing with my life) bring!

So since I did 101 Lessons From the Past 12 Months last year, you guys better be ready for something just as epically awesome as an overview of this school year in a week or so when I'm all done

Bring it Finals!

Beautiful Post

This is a post from my favorite blog. It is so beautifully written and is so easy to relate to! Enjoy!

i believe in unicorns.: Easter, Spring Renewals, and Stuff Like That...: "“In the depth of winter, I finally learned that within me there lay an invincible summer.” -Albert Camus It had been one of those year..."

Happy Easter!

Every year since forever, my family has celebrated Easter, well the Saturday before, at my grandparents house in Salina! It's the best ever! I was so grateful to participate in this years festivities because I was almost dead on my couch with mono and on drugs too keep me calm! I don't really remember that day at all....

Anyways....

We always have a big dutch oven dinner in the garage

Then we do this:

The most important part about Easter though, is the Atonement and the Resurrection.

I am so grateful that my Brother, my Savior, and my Friend Atoned for me. He knows how I feel about life and has done everything he possibly could to help me succeed so that I can live with Him again. I love the Plan of Salvation so much. It gives me such hope that all will be well. It is through this hope that I gain my greatest joy! I know, without a doubt, that through the Savior and by keeping the commandments, I will be eternally happy! I will get to be with my current and future family forever! I cannot wait! I love being with my family now, and I know that it will be even better in the eternities.

Cleanin' Out the Closet

Anyone who has ever been in my apartment knows I have WAY too much stuff for such a small space to hold! But, I took a lot to my family when I saw them on Thursday.



Sad part is, 80% of that stuff I didn't even need with me here at school. Luckily, I am reaping the results of cleaning out (phase 1). My dresser has never been so clean! And it feels super good to be able to fit all of my clothes in their proper drawers!

Not only did I physically clean out the closet (and dresser) this week, I've realized that I need to clean out my life from all unnecessary stress. I've been feeling crummy about a lot of different things lately and just being super stressed over things that don't really need to be stressed over. A big thing that I've realized is that it is absolutely ridiculous to hold grudges. There is really no point. Sometimes, those we love will disappoint us; but we still love them, not because of their actions, but because of who they are, children of God. People will make mistakes, but just because someone makes a mistake, doesn't mean they are that mistake. I've realized that forgiveness plays a major role in having inner peace. So I challenge you all to clean out your closet of grudges and love everyone for who they are, not what they do!

"Charity is having patience with someone who has let us down. It is resisting the impulse to become offended easily. It is accepting weaknesses and shortcomings. It is accepting people as they truly are. It is looking beyond physical appearances to attributes that will not dim through time. It is resisting the impulse to categorize others."
-President Thomas S. Monson

Thrilling Thursdays

I've decided that no matter how hectic my life gets, I'm going to post on Thursdays, no matter what. Unless I'm on vacation. But, I'm super sick of the internet at my apartment complex. And I'm sick of my laptop hating me. That's why this post will NOT be having any pictures. Lo siento. Also...this post is going to be super short because I have class in exactly 10 minutes. Lo siento...again.

So life has been fine lately. Nothing extremely exciting. I'm just really happy to be almost done with school and go home for the summer. I miss working at my dad's office ever so much!! Also, I think I'm going to invest in some new scrubs for this summer's work. I'm stoked. Scrubs are probably the best things ever. I considered going into the medical field for like two seconds, just so I could wear scrubs everyday.

Also, I love institute ever so much! On Tuesday we had a lesson entitled "These things shall give thee experience". Definitely my kind of lesson. In fact, I gave the thought and quoted from this book that I'm reading. It is most excellent. You should probably read it. Right now. You won't regret it. Anyways, back to institute. I sure love the gospel. Lately I haven't felt too excited about anything, except for things I've learned recently from church, conference, and institute. They make me want to to a back flip with joy. Sadly, my body cannot handle doing a back flip, so we'll just pretend that I'm awesome enough to do a back flip.

Sadly, I will not be attending institute today because......

I get to see my family!!!!! WAHOOOOO! I sure do love them.

I better run to class. If I didn't have to run right now, I'd write something inspirational....Sorry, sometimes I fail at life. Well not at life, sometimes I just fail in general. But that's okay. I'm a happy failure :) tehe

Oh Spring, Where Art Thou

Hi. My name is Kandace, and I love warm weather. Sad news, the weather has been no bueno for the past couple days, and it's supposed to snow for the next two. So, to cheer myself up, I'm going to blog about happy summer memories today!

Since my birthday is in July, we are almost always doing something exciting and away from home.
On my birthday, I've been in: Texas, Salina, Monticello, Brekenridge, California, Disney World, Youth Conference (I had a dance at Youth Conference for my 16th birthday), Family Reunion (s), and Lake Powell. Epic huh? It's because my birthday is awesome. It doubles as a prime time to have a vacation.

One thing I love about warm weather time of year is the chance to just relax outside. Although I usually spend the summer working, it's so chill! I get to just go to work, and when I leave, I'm done. I get to do as I please and relax, or hang with my friends, or eat ice cream, or watch a movie, or go on a bike ride, or blog! tehe. I have many great memories of simply eating popsicles outside in the Spring and Summer. I love popsicles, and I love just sitting on my front porch by myself thinking and eating a cool popsicle.

Also, warm weather means that it's tourist season at home. I love this because my little, po-dunk small town turns into a busy, happening place filled with people from all over the world. It's just so cute and fun! I live in the coolest place in the world!

The best part about summer is, I get to be home! I get to have home cooked meals and my own room that's been mine for years, not just months! It's so awesome! And I get to be with my family all the time. They rock my world.

So the next 2.5 weeks better hurry, because I have Spring Fever hard core!

Change is Oh So Good!

In my life lately, I have been making weekly goals. At the beginning of the semester, my goals were kinda silly and I basically just challenged myself to talk to boys! But my goals have become more and more serious as the semester has gone on. This is all a part of my theory that you make your own happiness, which requires a lot of effort on your part (as I keep having to remind myself).

One goal is actually one I've kind of had my whole life, but I've never been really good at it. The goal is to keep a journal and to write in it regularly. My mom got me the coolest journal ever. It's called One Line A Day:

In this journal you just have to write a simple paragraph about the main events of each day. This takes off all the pressure to give every detail! It has each day for the span of five years lined up on the same page, so at the end of five years, it'll be really easy to compare!

My goal this week is to take matters into my own hands and not just coast along life. I'm trying to be more open with everyone by sharing my honest feelings. It's only been two days of this, but I kinda like it! (even though it's super duper scary!!!!!) Along with taking matters into my own hands, I decided I needed to update my hair.

Love it!!! I think it makes me look quite mature if I do say so myself!

So I know my current goals are still kind of silly, but it's been so much fun to make small improvements each week! I look forward to looking back at this time in my life and realizing how much I've grown and changed from these stepping stone goals. And besides, it feels good to actually accomplish something!

"Goals give you more than a reason to get up in the morning; they are an incentive to keep you going all day. Goals tend to tap the deeper resources and draw the best out of life." - Harvey Mackay

Entertainment

So remember how last post I said I was going to put a bunch of pictures on this post? Well that's not happening because I'm home right now and not on my laptop so I don't have any pictures to post. I'm essentially just blogging to entertain myself this fine evening. My philosophy professor would refer to this post as "rhetorical fluff" (even though the rest of my blog would probably be considered rhetorical fluff as well, this post will be especially fluffy because I'm just going to be rambling on and on and on)

So let's see...what to ramble about....hmmmm

Well, life is pretty awesome. It's always been pretty awesome, but it's especially awesome today because I wore a hat today! Now I know for most girls hat days=bad hair days, but for me hat days=getreadyin15minutesandtrytodosomethingwithyourhairthatpromotesaslittlestressaspossible
days. Let me tell ya, wearing a hat ALWAYS reduces my stress level! And I always get compliments on my hats! Maybe I'll start wearing hats everyday? Na, probably not.

Let's see, what else is awesome....

• The fact that Libby Liberty has four wheel drive makes my life. As well as the fact that Dillon knows how to work Libby's four wheel drive through a blizzard through Salina Canyon in March.
• The fact that I have a choclate-y mint in my mouth right now. Those are always de-lish!
• The fact that I used to hyphens in that last bullet point is pretty cool. Hyphens in general are cool. They help you create new, ridiculous words.
• The fact that I got to educate myself about dental liability insurance throughout dinner tonight. (Dad you owe me. Oh right...I bet this is payback for the past 19.5 years, plus you've employed me for the past 4 summers...we're even)
• The fact that we listened to the most random music selection of my life on the way home today. I now have a cd player in my car, so i whipped out my good ol' cd collection and we listened to all of the cds without any identification written on them and then we listened to classics, like NSYNC and Now 8 and 9
• The fact that my roommates and I were absolutely insane last night. Number 5 was well overdue for some craziness. I think we should thank the epicness of the BYU game. That got us all sorts of hyper. Especially when Parson's (from Florida State) winked at us while throwing in free throws.
• The fact that my toes are a minty green color right now. I think they're pretty cool at least.

K, I'm done listing off the randomly awesome things in my life right now. There's lots of other awesome things that are definitely much more important happening, but sometimes it's fun to be random...right? Well I sure think so.

For all of you who actually read this entire post, you are good souls indeed. And you've earned some mega brownie points in my book.

"The world always looks brighter from behind a smile."

-Author Unknown

I Promise My Next Post Will Be Full Of Pictures

But.....

I've been thinking a lot lately. A lot a lot. Here's why:

Once upon a time, Kandace was in high school. She really wanted to go to SUU, so she did. And she loved it. Then Kandace fell in love and planned to get married to a certain boy. By marrying this boy, she would have to leave SUU, but she decided it'd be worthy trade-off. While Kandace was planning to marry this boy, she decided that when she grows up she wanted to be a speech therapist. Being a speech therapist would also be another reason to leave SUU. A while later, that boy felt like it wasn't right to marry Kandace anymore, and she was sad for awhile, but went on with her life.

She still wanted to be a speech therapist, so she made plans to transfer to BYU. Applying to BYU was a lengthy process, filled with short essays and interviews. The application had to be finished by February 1st. Kandace did everything in her power to get it all done in time, but BYU never got her transcripts from her concurrent enrollment classes from high school, which meant her application was incomplete, which meant BYU never looked at her application. Once Kandace figured this whole situation out it was kind of too late. Yet, she explained everything to BYU and they said they'd make a special case and look over her application, but they made sure to let her know that it would be very unlikely for her to get in. Well, last Thursday, Kandace found out that she didn't get in for fall semester because that one transcript was so late.

Kandace is realizing, that there must be some reason for her to be at SUU next fall. Every time she tries to get away, no matter how wise her efforts in leaving may seem, it just falls apart for reasons out of her control. She feels like she's trying her hardest to make good choices and do good things, but her plans don't seem to go her way.

But.... (thank you institute)

"If our lives and our faith are centered on Jesus Christ and his restored gospel, nothing can ever go permanently wrong."

-President Howard W. Hunter

Someday, everything will be just right and this will all make sense!

Pinky promise!

GO THUNDERBIRDS!
(at least for one more semester)

Dear Life,

Sometimes, I really don't understand you at all. For example, at approximately 11 o'clock last night, the weather was forecast-ed to be 52 degrees and sunny today. It's only gotten up to like 47 today, and it's cloudy. And since I thought it was going to be warm, I didn't wear a coat! I'm seriously ready for some skirt weather! Oh Well.

Also, Life, I really like you right now. Wanna know why?! Well I'll tell you.

First of all, I have probably the coolest friends in the entire world. We do the coolest things, like steal/receive couches, have dance parties in the kitchen, and play the Justin Bieber Backstage Pass board game. It's pretty legit. (I'm sure a blog post with plenty of pics of these events will be added soon)

Second of all, I have the best classes this semester. All the homework is kicking my butt, but I feel like, for once, all of my classes are beneficial to my life, not just a waste of time. Plus, taking two institute classes at once was a good choice.

Third of all, Life of mine, you have most excellent timing. Seriously. Like Monday was a horrible day. Lots of things seemed to be falling apart and I started to blame myself and think that I just wasn't good enough. Luckily, I received a blessing and started to change my perspective a bit. On Tuesday, in institute, the entire lesson focused on keeping a perspective and not letting Satan tempt you with thoughts of inadequacy. It was just the reminder I needed and it strengthened my testimony so much. So I know now, that sometimes your life plans do fall apart, but it's so better ones can come together. But life, don't get ahead of yourself, this particular life plan hasn't fallen apart quite yet.

So thank you life. These next couple days are going to be nerve-wracking, but once you know what's up, it'll be okay and you can make a decision. Hang in there. You rock.

Love you forever,

Kandace Hugentobler (the liver of this most excellent life)

Wowzers

Today has been...intense. But that's okay. Basically, I'll explain what happened when I know the outcome. Let's just say, I was big time disappointed and hurt over something that will all make sense later on. Luckily, after I cried for a minute, I remembered a quote I found last night from President Monson's talk, Looking Back and Moving Forward:

"Mortality is a period of testing, a time to prove ourselves worthy to return to the presence of our Heavenly Father. In order to be tested, we must sometimes face challenges and difficulties. At times there appears to be no light at the tunnel’s end—no dawn to break the night’s darkness. We feel surrounded by the pain of broken hearts, the disappointment of shattered dreams, and the despair of vanished hopes. We join in uttering the biblical plea “Is there no balm in Gilead?” 6 We are inclined to view our own personal misfortunes through the distorted prism of pessimism. We feel abandoned, heartbroken, alone. If you find yourself in such a situation, I plead with you to turn to our Heavenly Father in faith. He will lift you and guide you. He will not always take your afflictions from you, but He will comfort and lead you with love through whatever storm you face."

These past few weeks I've felt so lost and I forgot about the light at the end of the tunnel. But, through some recent events and conversations, I was re-reminded that I'm not alone. Not only do I have friends and family who love me so much and want me to succeed and be happy, I have a loving Father in Heaven who can see the whole picture. He knows that if I do the right things, in the end I'll be happier than I could ever imagine! I just have to be patient, and soon enough, this rough and confusing patch will be gone!

Oh and good news: Spring Break starts in 12 days!!!!!!!!

The Ultimate Couch Heist

So this post has been waiting a long time to be posted.... But trust me, it's worth the wait.

Once upon a time there were some girls at school with a very uncomfortable couch. They desperately wanted a new one. Luckily, the first counselor in their bishopric had extra couches and gave these lovely roommates "Shaniqua". Shaniqua instantly became the best couch ever and everyone always wanted to sit on it (even though it's technically Chelsea's). One night, my friend Jeff came over. Jeff is a funny fellow. Anyways, he comes in our apartment and discovers that he has the rest of our couch at his place!!!!

Fast forward a few months....

Amy, Chelsea, Kenna, and I decided to make a bucket list. Of course, one of the first items on our list was stealing Jeff's couch. So on Wednesday, February 9th, I had crappy day...remember? So we decided it would be a good idea to steal Jeff's couch (on his birthday!).















Needless to say, moral of the story:

If you're having a bad day, steal a couch. Your day will be instantly be better!

Also...we're giving Jeff his part of Shaniqua back this week. It is going to be a sad day. But we are getting another one!!!! I'm excited!

Blog Lovin'

So I love blogging, but I mostly love reading other people's blogs. That's the main thing that keeps me from blogging on a regular basis, I get too distracted! So reading all these blogs makes me want 3 things in life:

1. A sweet wardrobe
   
2. A killer blog
3. A cute husband

The thing is...I've kind of got a head start on all of these. I feel like I have pretty cute clothes, but I don't have as much variety as my ultimate goal. I 'd also need to be able to take pictures of myself in cute clothes...which won't be happening anytime soon. Back in my hayday, I would take pictures of myself all the time, but I just can't do it anymore. I feel like I'm not sassy enough. I also get to worried about branching out and trying new things.

In order to have a killer blog, I actually need to blog. Like on a regular basis. And take pictures. And, make friends with the girls I follow in the blogging world. This requires a lot of effort in my opinion. So, I've gotta round up some motivation before my blog becomes killer!

The third one, I believe, will be the hardest to accomplish. Love is so scary. Everytime I find myself in it, it all falls apart. I'm seriously to the point now that I don't even want to deal with a boyfriend, unless I'm friends with a guy for a really really really long time first. Then I look at these blogs and look at wedding stuff, and I just want to be in love again. Something about love is so liberating, just knowing that someone loves you because of who you are, not because you're related or because they have to for whatever reason. When someone loves you, you feel like you're worth something, like you can make a difference in a world. Love gives you such a sense of security, because you feel like no matter what happens, your love will remain.

But for now, I just have to stick to loving my life just the way it is. Someday, my prince will come, and it'll all work out. I promise though, I am happier now than I've ever been, which leads me to my biggest lifetime goal:

Be happy, no matter what your life circumstance, and let that happiness radiate to those around you.

All I want to do in life is be happy, and make others happy. I guess that's the real purpose of this little blog of mine. So no matter if I ever have the ultimate wardrobe, a blog with a gazillion followers, or a cute husband (well I really do hope for a cute husband someday), this blog will always be dedicated to happiness and how happy I am with my life! Pinky Promise!

Tied Together With A Smile

I'm glad that T-Swift knows how I feel sometimes. I really appreciate it. If I could, I'd shake her hand and tell her thanks. But that will never happen. Guess I'll just have to keep that smile tied together! Maybe in a bit, I'll be smiling inside too! Oh and P.S., exactly 1 year ago, I went to the ER with my crazy fever! Crazy how time flies!

Weekend of Epic-ness

So one of my New Year's Resolutions was to have a better blog. This includes more updates, more pictures, and more followers. So far, I'm kind of failing. Good thing I still have 11 more months :)

So a couple weekends ago, my grandma set me up on a date with one of her missionaries. He's brought two friends and they invited a girl and I invited my dear friend Kenna. Of course, the boys didn't tell us exactly what was in store for the day, so we got super cute!



And I was worried because I wore my converse, because I really wanted to look cute...but my converse are so comfortable!



But we got out on the date and we looked way too cute to be in the middle of no where



It was super muddy



And the cars got stuck!





After the cars got unstuck, the boys hiked us on out to 2000 Flushes so we could fly $3 Wal-Mart kites!





It was a way fun date! Definitely Epic! And I'm glad I wore my converse since it was so muddy everywhere!



Later that night, after the boys left, I went to a casino night on campus. I wasn't planning on playing but I did...and I'm good at Blackjack! So feel free to bring me along to Vegas! (mostly for the warm weather tho, I don't really gamble) So I usually don't win anything....but I won a big barrel of cheeseballs! I don't even like cheeseballs!



All in all, it was a great weekend.

I just love my life!