Change is Oh So Good!

In my life lately, I have been making weekly goals. At the beginning of the semester, my goals were kinda silly and I basically just challenged myself to talk to boys! But my goals have become more and more serious as the semester has gone on. This is all a part of my theory that you make your own happiness, which requires a lot of effort on your part (as I keep having to remind myself).

One goal is actually one I've kind of had my whole life, but I've never been really good at it. The goal is to keep a journal and to write in it regularly. My mom got me the coolest journal ever. It's called One Line A Day:

In this journal you just have to write a simple paragraph about the main events of each day. This takes off all the pressure to give every detail! It has each day for the span of five years lined up on the same page, so at the end of five years, it'll be really easy to compare!

My goal this week is to take matters into my own hands and not just coast along life. I'm trying to be more open with everyone by sharing my honest feelings. It's only been two days of this, but I kinda like it! (even though it's super duper scary!!!!!) Along with taking matters into my own hands, I decided I needed to update my hair.

Love it!!! I think it makes me look quite mature if I do say so myself!

So I know my current goals are still kind of silly, but it's been so much fun to make small improvements each week! I look forward to looking back at this time in my life and realizing how much I've grown and changed from these stepping stone goals. And besides, it feels good to actually accomplish something!

"Goals give you more than a reason to get up in the morning; they are an incentive to keep you going all day. Goals tend to tap the deeper resources and draw the best out of life." - Harvey Mackay

Entertainment

So remember how last post I said I was going to put a bunch of pictures on this post? Well that's not happening because I'm home right now and not on my laptop so I don't have any pictures to post. I'm essentially just blogging to entertain myself this fine evening. My philosophy professor would refer to this post as "rhetorical fluff" (even though the rest of my blog would probably be considered rhetorical fluff as well, this post will be especially fluffy because I'm just going to be rambling on and on and on)

So let's see...what to ramble about....hmmmm

Well, life is pretty awesome. It's always been pretty awesome, but it's especially awesome today because I wore a hat today! Now I know for most girls hat days=bad hair days, but for me hat days=getreadyin15minutesandtrytodosomethingwithyourhairthatpromotesaslittlestressaspossible
days. Let me tell ya, wearing a hat ALWAYS reduces my stress level! And I always get compliments on my hats! Maybe I'll start wearing hats everyday? Na, probably not.

Let's see, what else is awesome....

• The fact that Libby Liberty has four wheel drive makes my life. As well as the fact that Dillon knows how to work Libby's four wheel drive through a blizzard through Salina Canyon in March.
• The fact that I have a choclate-y mint in my mouth right now. Those are always de-lish!
• The fact that I used to hyphens in that last bullet point is pretty cool. Hyphens in general are cool. They help you create new, ridiculous words.
• The fact that I got to educate myself about dental liability insurance throughout dinner tonight. (Dad you owe me. Oh right...I bet this is payback for the past 19.5 years, plus you've employed me for the past 4 summers...we're even)
• The fact that we listened to the most random music selection of my life on the way home today. I now have a cd player in my car, so i whipped out my good ol' cd collection and we listened to all of the cds without any identification written on them and then we listened to classics, like NSYNC and Now 8 and 9
• The fact that my roommates and I were absolutely insane last night. Number 5 was well overdue for some craziness. I think we should thank the epicness of the BYU game. That got us all sorts of hyper. Especially when Parson's (from Florida State) winked at us while throwing in free throws.
• The fact that my toes are a minty green color right now. I think they're pretty cool at least.

K, I'm done listing off the randomly awesome things in my life right now. There's lots of other awesome things that are definitely much more important happening, but sometimes it's fun to be random...right? Well I sure think so.

For all of you who actually read this entire post, you are good souls indeed. And you've earned some mega brownie points in my book.

"The world always looks brighter from behind a smile."

-Author Unknown

I Promise My Next Post Will Be Full Of Pictures

But.....

I've been thinking a lot lately. A lot a lot. Here's why:

Once upon a time, Kandace was in high school. She really wanted to go to SUU, so she did. And she loved it. Then Kandace fell in love and planned to get married to a certain boy. By marrying this boy, she would have to leave SUU, but she decided it'd be worthy trade-off. While Kandace was planning to marry this boy, she decided that when she grows up she wanted to be a speech therapist. Being a speech therapist would also be another reason to leave SUU. A while later, that boy felt like it wasn't right to marry Kandace anymore, and she was sad for awhile, but went on with her life.

She still wanted to be a speech therapist, so she made plans to transfer to BYU. Applying to BYU was a lengthy process, filled with short essays and interviews. The application had to be finished by February 1st. Kandace did everything in her power to get it all done in time, but BYU never got her transcripts from her concurrent enrollment classes from high school, which meant her application was incomplete, which meant BYU never looked at her application. Once Kandace figured this whole situation out it was kind of too late. Yet, she explained everything to BYU and they said they'd make a special case and look over her application, but they made sure to let her know that it would be very unlikely for her to get in. Well, last Thursday, Kandace found out that she didn't get in for fall semester because that one transcript was so late.

Kandace is realizing, that there must be some reason for her to be at SUU next fall. Every time she tries to get away, no matter how wise her efforts in leaving may seem, it just falls apart for reasons out of her control. She feels like she's trying her hardest to make good choices and do good things, but her plans don't seem to go her way.

But.... (thank you institute)

"If our lives and our faith are centered on Jesus Christ and his restored gospel, nothing can ever go permanently wrong."

-President Howard W. Hunter

Someday, everything will be just right and this will all make sense!

Pinky promise!

GO THUNDERBIRDS!
(at least for one more semester)

Dear Life,

Sometimes, I really don't understand you at all. For example, at approximately 11 o'clock last night, the weather was forecast-ed to be 52 degrees and sunny today. It's only gotten up to like 47 today, and it's cloudy. And since I thought it was going to be warm, I didn't wear a coat! I'm seriously ready for some skirt weather! Oh Well.

Also, Life, I really like you right now. Wanna know why?! Well I'll tell you.

First of all, I have probably the coolest friends in the entire world. We do the coolest things, like steal/receive couches, have dance parties in the kitchen, and play the Justin Bieber Backstage Pass board game. It's pretty legit. (I'm sure a blog post with plenty of pics of these events will be added soon)

Second of all, I have the best classes this semester. All the homework is kicking my butt, but I feel like, for once, all of my classes are beneficial to my life, not just a waste of time. Plus, taking two institute classes at once was a good choice.

Third of all, Life of mine, you have most excellent timing. Seriously. Like Monday was a horrible day. Lots of things seemed to be falling apart and I started to blame myself and think that I just wasn't good enough. Luckily, I received a blessing and started to change my perspective a bit. On Tuesday, in institute, the entire lesson focused on keeping a perspective and not letting Satan tempt you with thoughts of inadequacy. It was just the reminder I needed and it strengthened my testimony so much. So I know now, that sometimes your life plans do fall apart, but it's so better ones can come together. But life, don't get ahead of yourself, this particular life plan hasn't fallen apart quite yet.

So thank you life. These next couple days are going to be nerve-wracking, but once you know what's up, it'll be okay and you can make a decision. Hang in there. You rock.

Love you forever,

Kandace Hugentobler (the liver of this most excellent life)