Rambling and Dreaming of the Ocean.

If you ever read my entire blog, I'm sure you will see a constant theme of

"Look, I'm blogging again!"

or

"I need to be better at blogging"

or 

"Someday I'm going to have a super cute blog that everyone loves to read"

(That last one may not have been voiced until now)

But, alas, I have proven time and time again that I am not a consistent blogger. You can thank my dear friend Tailor (she as a blog worth aspiring to) for getting me to post today.

Now the question is.... What will this post be about? (It will be a surprise for me too...)

I can't write an update of my life because it's been far too long....

Nor can I post photos of myself looking ridiculously spectacular in my lovely wardrobe because I definitely love sweatpants and baggy sweaters too much (this weekend in particular)...

Nor can I post the delicious food in my life lately (in case you were wondering, yesterday my diet consisted of cereal, a microwave burrito, and Papa Murphy's. And lots of Diet Coke)....

But I guess I can post about some thoughts that have been weighing on my mind... 

January of 2013 was possibly one of the most hectic months in my life. It was one of those months where it feels like everything changes. Some of the changes good, some bad, some confusing, some by my own choice, some by others choices, some because I was trying to do the right thing, and some simply came naturally because life happens. 

As I have been going through these changes, I feel myself complaining a lot, which is dumb of me. I have such a blessed life and none of the changes in the last month were truly bad. In fact, all were right, which means they were all good. But change can be hard.

If you think about it, even the constants in this life continually change, even while they remain a constant. For example, the ocean, to me, is a constant. It is huge, full of water, salty, relaxing, and a place that fills my soul with joy. But think about how many changes even the mighty ocean experiences in a single day. It does not hold still with its waves continually growing, rolling, and crashing into the beach. It's level seems to rise and fall in extreme amounts, when, in reality, the tide is just changing. It gets mowed through with innumerable boats, barges, and cruise ships. And, since it is a home for more creatures than one can even imagine, it witnesses new birth and the passing of a life every single day. 

But the ocean is still there crashing into the beach and bringing joy to many people of this world. In fact, it is it's daily changes that it perseveres through each day that makes it beloved by so many people. Without the waves, beaches wouldn't be quite the playground they are for people all over the world (and hott surfer men would not exist). Without the change of the tide, tide pools could not exist with all of their fascinating creatures, nor would beaches exist. Without the boats, barges, and cruise ships, shipment, travel, and extravagant vacationing would not be a reality. More importantly, most of the world would never have been discovered! And without the ecosystems of the ocean, many people could not be fed, we could never see coral reefs, and it would probably mean the ocean is not a place for living things to even attend. 

So as I ponder the ocean and how it changes throughout its continual consistency and how those changes make it what it is, I know that I can be true to myself. You can always count on life changing, and it is these changes that make life exciting and worth it. Without change, we can never progress. Without change, we would not even be on this earth today. Most importantly, without change, we could never be truly happy.

P.S. I really am craving a trip to the ocean...in case you couldn't tell!

Obsessed

I am obsessed with a few glorious things right now. And it's slightly disgusting, distracting, and magical.

1. Twitter. Yes. I love tweeting. Way too much. My roommate and I have this horrible problem of tweeting each other while we are in our own rooms in our apartment. It's disgusting. But I feel like sometimes I make some pretty good tweets. Also, it's a great distraction in class if I'm on the verge of falling asleep.

2. Sleeping. I'm a grandma. Because of this, I miss out on late night memories with the amigos. It's a sad world. But dreamland is a party.

3. Coral. Maybe within the last 4 weeks, I became the proud owner of coral pants and two coral dresses. I just feel like springtime magic when I wear coral. P.S. I know that isn't me wearing adorable coral shorts, but I wish it were...so just imagine it k?

4. Tumblr. I just got one of these a couple weeks ago. I have two whole followers and I have no idea how it works...but I know it is full of pictures of my boyfriend, which is all I need.

5. Josh Hutcherson. Man he's a cute boyfriend. If you don't know him, get to know him. Then you will know why he is the best ever.

I think that's it on my list of obsessions.........

(Since this post was short, feel free to drool over J. Hutch for a sec. I'll allow it.)

Love.

Lately, I've been doing a lot of self pondering trying to figure out who I am and who I want to become. It's been rejuvenating and slightly painful. Somedays, I honestly don't know who I am. And that scares me. At the same time, I feel like it is impossible to define someone in a matter of a few words, or even a few paragraphs. One way I realized that I can know who I am is by identifying the things I love most.  For example, I love learning about biology. And frogs. Which explains why I bought this lovely book at the used book store today:

(A Plague of Frogs: A Horrifying True Story....Basically there were a bunch of mutated frogs and scientists found out why. Legit. I know.)

But I love other things too.... Like music, and my friends, and laughing. I really love laughing. Does that mean I'm a jamming frog with lots of friends who ribbits (laughs) all the time? Kind of. But it's still not me.

One person I know for sure I am me around is this girl. 

Isn't she beautiful??? Man she rocks my world. This is Brooklin. She is my younger sister. She is also one of the kindest, funniest, talented, most mature girls I know. She is always kind to those around her and she knows how to have a good time. This summer, we spent like 4 days together without the rest of my family. They were probably my favorite days of the whole summer. Except for Hawaii. 

We took lots and lots of silly pictures. Seriously, this girl is a riot! But most of all, she is my best friend. We are so different from one another, and we don't always get along, but we always love each other. There were so many times over the past few years that I was able to confide in Brooklin about different things I was experiencing, and she was a great listener. Don't get me wrong, this girl is not afraid to give her opinion, but she is always willing to listen. Man I miss her! 

But I'm still asking... Who am I? Maybe I will never know because I don't have a perfect perspective on my life, but I do know this. Simply put, I am a daughter of God who misses her sister very very much and I sure hope she knows just how much I love her! 

In other news, I wore sandals today. It was probably the best day of 2012. My toes have missed the freedom!

Lately.

Lately, I have loved life so much! Maybe that's why I haven't blogged? Or maybe I'm just busy a lot. I haven't decided yet.

While I decide, here's an update on my life.

First of all, I had a pet tadpole named Rupert of AN ENTIRE WEEK!!! And then he died. And then I cried. It was probably the best week of my life though.

Also, I am the proud owner of 3 television sets! Last year we had lots of couches... we've upgraded to tv's this year... or downgraded. Good news is, 2 of them work! And one even plays VHS!!! Love it. We are the definition of ghetto fab.

By we, I mean my roomies and I. Look how cute they are! And guess what boys, they're single! And probably some of the best girls I have ever known!

Speaking of single...I think I'm still single because I can grow a better mustache than most men. What do you think???

On a more serious note...I know all of you are dying to REALLY know what's happening in my life. You're probably expecting something epic or dramatic, bat alas, I have nothing epic or exciting to tell. Except, I must admit, I think I've been happier in the last 6 months than I have ever been in my life. Except for maybe when I was like...3. I was a really cute 3 year old! (Just ask my momma!)

Promise I'll update more! Blogger is a lot easier than it used to be! This was fun to catch up! Comment and let me know how ya'll are doing. Or don't.

Love ya!

Recent Realizations

Conference was so spectacular, even though I didn't take notes, so I don't exactly remember all the talks... But I do know one thing, Heavenly Father sure knows what I need to hear in my life. Lately I've been beyond confused about everything. Nothing is really making sense. At all. But after the Relief Society Broadcast and listening to conference, it reaffirmed the fact that Heavenly Father loves me and is fully aware of all my confusion, and soon enough I will be unconfused! Woohoo!

On another note, I have made the best realization ever in the last month. I know, epic. Here's a picture to help you guess what it is...

No Idea??? Well, I have realized that I just need to stop doing my hair, because it does kinda cute things without the use of any heat products. I know. Shocking. And yes, I've let my hair do whatever in the past, but I learned a new trick! Steam! Just shower and let your hair get damp and it will do the rest on its own. In the end you get wavy, healthy hair, both of which are awesome. 

One more realization, I love doing homework in my living room!

I'm not really sure why. Possibly because we have a Justin Bieber poster, or a "Stop! Hatin's bad" sign, or the natural lighting. Perhaps I'm just in love with it all. 

Speaking of studying, I have a test in a couple hours so I should probably stop blogging! 

Goal of the week: 

Forget Not to be happy! 

Life.

Well... I haven't taken pictures lately, but all you need to know is:

• School is kicking my trash
• My roommates and friends rock
• All I think about is biology 
• President Uchdorf is the man!

The end. Maybe someday I'll be good at taking pictures and blogging again. Hopefully. Oh and I love this   song:

The Legend of the Hugenfrogler

Once Upon A Time....

Kandace was a freshman in high school and participated on the drill team. That year, for the novelty dance, Kandace was a frog. Soon her friends started calling her the Hugenfrogler and her true love of frogs began. Kandace realized that her all time favorite fairy tale was that of the Princess and the Frog. Because of this tale, she believes that all boys begin as frogs and someday the right one will become a real live prince!

During Kandace's freshman year of college, she took a photography class. In this class she did a self portrait assignment that needed to show who she really is. She decided to show her expression as she met the frog that would become her prince. Needless to say, she got an A on the assignment.

Recently, Kandace went to Lake Powell and she was dared to kiss a frog. This dare was not even scary. In fact, she kissed the frog 3 times, mostly because she wanted a picture! Sadly, the frog didn't become a prince. Oh well.

On many occasions, frogs have fallen into her window well. She can always tell when it's a frog because she can hear the hops very distinctly. On Sunday, she opened her window to smile at her froggy friend.

Soon she realized that there was another frog. A STUCK FROG!! She screamed and frantically texted her dad to come and rescue the frog. She knew her dad was at church in her family ward, but something had to be done to save this poor creature.

So her dad realized how important the situation was (mostly because of how worried Kandace was getting) and he came to save the frog{s}.

and they all lived

Happily Ever After!